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  1. Michael Bentley
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    Oh Jane, I had no idea things were so bad. Somehow I had missed what is going on for you until now. I don’t know if there’s anything I can say that might help when you are going through hell like this, but I want you to know that I’m here for you. If you ever want to talk or vent, you can contact me any time, and I WILL respond as quickly as I can. I’m so glad that so many friends responded to your unconscious cry for help, and that you have your lovely Mrs Blackbird in your life to help you through – as I had my own partner when I broke down five years ago. My experience was clearly not the same as yours, but I can relate to the fearful kind of place you must be in. There is nothing more painful or nightmarish in the whole of life, I think.

    Thinking of you, and sending metta and warm wishes for recovery very soon. You WILL come through. The fear that the darkness is endless is just another of the lies depression tells.

    With big, warm hugs from Angie and me.

    Michael <3

    • Jane Waterman
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      Dear Michael,

      Thank you for your loving message, my dear friend – it means the world to me. I don’t know why this is happening now – I think the accumulation of stressors has brought me here. I feel very grateful to have so many loving friends. I’m sure this would feel so much more overwhelming if I, as I once was, felt so alone. I am very lucky to have Mrs Blackbird, and an amazing counsellor, and so many brave and awesome friends like you. *hugs* I am just trying to take things as slowly as I can. I’m aware that I’m fragile and can feel overwhelmed so quickly. My biggest challenge is to remember to treat myself as I would treat a friend in need.

      Thank you, DearHeart. Lots of love and hugs from our part of the world to you and Angie.
      Jane
      xxxx

  2. Catherine
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    Dear Jane,
    I am still so sorry, I know darkness my self and holding on seems all we can do. You know I am here for you and mrs. Blackbird. Kary and I left you up. Your in our thoughts and prayers sweet girl.
    Love you catherine

    • Jane Waterman
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      Dear Catherine,

      Thank you, DearHeart. I know you are going through so many struggles of your own, so I appreciate even more your coming here to support me. I am so very grateful to be in your heart and your lives, and I’m sending all my love and healing energy to you and to Kary. I love you very much. Thank you for being a special angel.

      Lots of love and gentle hugs,
      Jane
      xxxx

  3. Jan
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    Oh my beloved DearHeart … we’ve been traveling, so I just now saw this. I’m in tears over your terrifying experience; I’m awash in tears of a far different kind due to your amazing resilience. Yes, resilience: YOU won that desperate night … you conquered the darkness by asking for help. That request came from deep within your soul, beyond the boundaries established by your illness.

    You have the love of your incredible wife and your beautiful daughters to help you through this, plus SO MANY devoted friends who will be by your side … whenever and however you need.

    Sending Much Love Always,
    JanSis

    • Jane Waterman
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      Dearest JanSis,

      Thank you for your heartfelt message – you need never worry that I always know my heart family is with me… just sometimes I may get a little lost and then on that morning I was so beautifully reminded of the miracle of heart family and friends. I feel very blessed by that knowing. I’m very tired as I struggle with this, but I’m trying to be kind and rest as much as I can, which might mean I’m not online as much, but you’re all never far from my thoughts.

      All my love to you and John – I hope you have had some happy travels.

      Biggest hugs and love,
      me
      xxxx

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