I remember the first time I felt this tired. Not the exact hour, day, or even year, but I remember the quality of it. I was at the sink, preparing vegetables, and I got so tired that I had to … Read More

Suicide is an especially difficult topic for me. I have known three people who lost the battle to depression and successfully ended their lives. I use the word “successfully” ironically. As a survivor, I know there is no victory in … Read More

The International Association for Suicide Prevention provides contact information for crisis centres around the world. Befrienders Worldwide also provides links to helpline networks around the world. Select your country from the dropdown menu in the top right corner. In the U.K. the Samaritans offer … Read More

A friend of mine is fond of the saying: “The only permanent thing is change.” That maxim has been true of my life recently, and will be for some time to come, I am certain. Words have circulated in my … Read More

On the high-pain days, the world seems to shrink a little smaller, and I am left with the dilemma of how to inhabit my body when it is such a source of pain. As if mirroring my inner world, as … Read More

Sometimes I feel like I’m speaking into a void, but the void is of my own making. I step closer to being authentic, to being who I am, but I hold onto the fears of who will judge me, what … Read More

Thoughts on depression Respect the wisdom of others, but never at the expense of your own wisdom. When I first truly realized that I was experiencing an extreme mood disturbance, I talked to the GP about it. He referred me … Read More