After Munch #8 © 2012 Jane Waterman
Interior life

Silent House

I will try to connect All the pieces you left I will carry it on And let you forget I’ll remember the years When your mind was still clear All the flickering lights Filled up this silent house From Silent House (Finn, Maines, Robison, Maguire) I love the song ‘Silent

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Contraction © 2012 Jane Waterman
Interior life

Dark Matter

Recently, I heard it described that depression is a liar. It deceives us into believing all hope and joy is sucked out of the moment in which we live. I don’t know if it’s a liar so much as a thief, sneaking in on little feet, gradually drawing all the

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Storm On Jupiter © 2012 Jane Waterman
Mental health challenges

Theories of Depression

I’m far away from my first career as a physicist, but not so far that I didn’t learn a few things. In particular, when preoccupied with the search for a theory of everything and being foiled yet again, physicists discover there’s always another level of complexity that they hadn’t considered.

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Shadow Selves © 2013 Jane Waterman
Interior life

Shadows

How strange the nature of the beast. You do all you can to combat it, but at times, all its victories pile up against the stanchions. Once more you feel adrift, treading water in the deepest shadows. Spoke to one daughter at lunch, who seems to be fighting her own

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Soul Clouds #8 © 2015 Jane Waterman
Mental health challenges

On Suicide – Don’t Give Up

Suicide is an especially difficult topic for me. I have known three people who lost the battle to depression and successfully ended their lives. I use the word “successfully” ironically. As a survivor, I know there is no victory in losing the fight, and to this day I am still

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Purple Heart © 2012 Jane Waterman
Mental health challenges

Emergency Help

The International Association for Suicide Prevention provides contact information for crisis centres around the world. Befrienders Worldwide also provides links to helpline networks around the world. Select your country from the dropdown menu in the top right corner. In the U.K. the Samaritans offer confidential 24-hour telephone counselling services at 08457 90 90 90. For

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Into the Woods © 2002 Jane Waterman
Mental health challenges

On Depression

Thoughts on depression Respect the wisdom of others, but never at the expense of your own wisdom. When I first truly realized that I was experiencing an extreme mood disturbance, I talked to the GP about it. He referred me to a psychiatrist, who prescribed anti-depressants. I then visited my

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